Opinions

Since trying to get pregnant for the past year, I've become more hyper aware of the dumb things people say without thinking of who is around when they're saying something.

At work the conversation got steered towards Infertility and more specifically in vitro fertilization.  My boss began to talk about how she felt ivf was "unnatural" and that if you couldn't get pregnant the right way then maybe it's a sign that it isn't in the cards to have your own child.  Someone piped up saying they completely agreed and they couldn't understand why people just didn't adopt at that point.

It was hard, nobody knows about our struggles at this point but I still felt personally attacked.  I stayed mostly quiet throughout it all.  I feel stuck sometimes, do I discuss my infertility to make people aware of one persons experience and make them think before they say something, or keep quiet to maintain the peace and some privacy?

I feel that people should take the best course for them and their family, and I know that given my personal experience, I want to try everything first before moving to adoption.  But I know that might not be what other people want or may feel that ivf is too invasive, but that's their choice and I respect that.

As a PSA please keep your comments about what people should do with their bodies and making a family to yourself, because you don't know what the person next to you is going through.  Ill admit that prior to this past year I probably said some idiotic things so I know I'm not perfect, but seriously people, think before you speak.

I failed

Of course I took a test this morning, who am I kidding?! It was negative of course.

And five hours later my period came.  Bah.

Updates

So 60 days came and went and nothing happened.  It's so unbelievably frustrating.  Having to go day in and day out with nothing happening.  No period and no positive pregnancy test.  It's hard to describe the maddening feeling when you're body isn't cooperating and you're trying to do everything right but it's not helping.

After 67 days I went to go in for an ultrasound to see what was going on.  I thought I had another cyst, but the ultrasound actually showed good news.  No cyst and I was on the cusp of ovulating or had just ovulated.  I had strict orders from the doctor to go home and have lots of sex, which I followed to a T.

At this point 14 months in, even sex has lost it's fun.  Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy it, but it can be exhausting.  My appt was now 11 days ago, and the longest luteal phase I've had with a confirmed ovulation.  This is good for two reasons, one it hopefully means that I ovulated after the appt, which made our timing excellent (and I'm pregnant) or that the b6 is working and making it so my luteal phase will support a pregnancy.

My goal is to make it to June 1st to test.  I hope I make it.