Seriously peeps....

I feel like this blog is such a Debbie downer, but I feel like I never have good news...I guess the only good news would be getting ktfu.  We are now having to put a old on trying to get pregnant for the next three months.  I cried all night last night.  It's I'd something I want, we want so badly and barriers keep getting thrown up.  I'm trying to be grateful and recognize its not a big deal and will be for the best but meh.

The reason for stopping is because of a new job yay! More money, less stress, which is so so needed, but there's no maternity benefits until you have worked for a year.  And I get it, I do, it makes sense.  But I really want to pout and stomp my foot and whine it's not fairrrrrrrr, in my best bratty voice.

Annnnd another of our friends had a kid, with a chick he doesn't even like! We had no idea he was with her or pregnant and we just found out she had the baby.  It's just truly frustrating how stuck I am.

Blargh

That's the best title I can think of...blargh...I'm trying so hard to be zen and just accept what happens, but this is getting ridiculous.l

Metformin is working well, I'm ovulating at least.  We had banging timing this month (hehe banging) and I felt our odds were pretty good.  I only temped until confirmed ovulation and then stopped so I wouldn't obsess.  And then I was a day late! Squee! Peed on a test, bfn.  Shit.  Looked up my odds, well only 51% are positive. Still good odds.  Next day, bfn.  Next day BFFN.  mother fucker!

I can deal with getting my period, I'd be thrilled if it were positive, but this 4 day late shit? Total mind fuck. Sigh.  I think it's another cyst.  I'm cramping but it's to the side, not uterus.  And since there's nothing they can do ill just have to wait it out.

Blargh.